sigh. feeling kinda lost these few days. hate it when i dont know where im going next or if i can get to where i want. a levels is not very far off but my 5 As still seem elusive. sigh. whatever happened to big dreams and great ambitions. seems like everyone is busy applying something here and there while i dont really know how i should go about it. yeah. everyone says just study for a levels first and settle the rest later.i guess thts true. but it is really unsettling realising that you may not be good enough for what you wanna be. and theres nothing much i can change about some of it. like the amount of CIP hours for eg. oh well. just some random blab from my incoherent, messed up mind now. back to math. =(