2010
happy new year one and all. haven't been blogging much these days so i decided to finally get back to it now, one hour into 2010. life's been crazy and fun in the past month. new zealand was awesome.great food, great scenery, great weather. then came Bintan, which was again fantastic.love the beach. enjoyed the trip much cause i gotta spend lotsa time with dear (though i kinda spent a hell lot of time cooking in the kitchen). time kinda swept by after that.and here i am, at the start of 2010. im so freak tired cause of my sparse 3hour sleep last night at j2 farewell but yet i cant sleep. makes sense? no. insomnia (as goes the song that charm was singing to me the whole night long), probably. whatever.
2009 was eventful to say the least. there were good, and bad. disappointments and encouragements. it was a time of tremendous stress and also a time of endless fun and laughter. i guess 2009 turned out in many ways i wouldn have expected.
the start of 2010 feels kinda depressing. perhaps its cause there is no longer anymore chartered path set for me to trod ahead. its all up to me now and that's kinda scary. 2010 may be a year of (drastic) changes maybe? i don't know where i'll end up. where we'll end up. i don't know how i really want my life to be. the year ahead may be one of important decisions, difficult ones maybe. its just a whole lot of question marks waiting to be unravelled as time sweeps by as we watch on. and i think that sucks quite a bit. kinda feeling lonely now. especially with all these thoughts in my head, churning around in my mind. this new year's eve is kinda sad. i don't know why. just feels like i got lotsa stuff to get off my chest but i can't really talk to anyone anyhow so yeah, i ended up here. its kinda weird emo-ing to a blog but it can't really be helped. not tonight anyway.
i guess nothing really can be helped by worrying about tomorrow. so we'll just let 2010 take its course..but than again, im just feeling emo lah. screw it :(
